Sadness and bad moods

Dub usually tries to keep the blog light and fun. I could write tonight about the fact that I sat for over two hours to cry like a girl with our Jordin Sparks as she won "American Idol". I could write about the crazy season finale of "Lost". I could comment on Star's bad performance on SVU Tuesday night as...HERSELF!!! She even sucks at being her.

Instead, I am feeling blah tonight and need to vent about what is apparently my karmic payback for what must have been a horrible act. Everything in Dub's life seems to be going into the ole crapper. I'm still not employed ... despite the emailing of easily 100 resumes over the last couple weeks. I do have a second interview for a good job coming up but it is taking a while to schedule the second meeting...and in the meantime I am draining my savings.

I think at some point along the way, I've talked about the fact that I do theater in Chicago. If not, I do. For over a year, I've been busting my ass to keep up a new theater space that we moved into. I started a branch of the company that performs for kids and had pretty grand plans for the coming year. I found out last week that we are losing the space because we can't afford the rent. Because of other commitments and duties, I never even got the opportunity to perform in a mainstage/primetime show in the space that I did a shitload of work to keep running. I am frustrated because I can't do anything to help save the place...I'd need to come up with a lot of money in a short period of time...if I could do that, I'd have to use it to pay my own rent at home.

So, I'm single, jobless, and losing the business that was my passion. I'm lucky to have some great friends who have been supportive of me with all the drama, but I'm starting to feel really down about it all.

Sorry I couldn't be funny today. I'll try to be funny later.

Dub